The first time I saw a dead body, it was at an open casket ceremony for my middle school bus driver, Bob. I went to an inner-city magnet school and rode the bus 30 minutes into the city every morning. My bus stop was my neighborhood school, all of 3 houses and a field away (and this is Indiana, so when I say feild, I mean cornfield). So many mornings I would be eating breakfast and Bob would honk the horn and I would go sprinting to catch the bus. He would say he was preparing me for the Olympics. Bob was a nice guy with a high tolerance for bratty kids who didn’t get to the bus stop on time and always demanded he change the radio station when I/we didn’t like the song.
I was in 9th grade when I heard that he passed from cancer.
His was the first funeral I remember. My grandma died later that year, but she was an orthodox Jew and so there was no “viewing.” I looked into Bob’s casket, and there was a waxy pale skinny figure. I turned to my friend who had come with me and said, “That’s not Bob.” Bob was tan, full figured, strong – not like what was in the coffin.
On today’s daf we read the continuation of a debate about if one Kohen dies, can the second Kohen who takes his place use the same blood of sacrifice that the first was going to use? The question the rabbis need to settle is – when is a bull considered a bull? Is it only when it’s alive? When the entire carcass is there? When it still has blood?
Rabbi Yitzḥak Nappaḥa raised an objection to Rabbi Ami: “And he shall remove the entire bull outside the camp” (Leviticus 4:12). This verse speaks of a bull that has been slaughtered and its fats and sacrificial parts have been burned, which proves that even after it has been slaughtered, it is still called a bull. Rabbi Ami replied: The animal itself is not called a bull at this stage; rather, it means that he should remove the entire carcass, all that remains of the bull.
The Gemara raises another difficulty by citing a verse: “And the bull of the sin-offering and the goat of the sin-offering, whose blood was brought in to make atonement in the Sanctuary, shall be taken outside the camp” (Leviticus 16:27). Once again, the verse proves that even after it has been slaughtered and its blood is brought into the Holy of Holies, the animal is still called a bull. Rav Pappa said: Everyone agrees that when it is intact, with its hide, its flesh, and its excrement, it is called a bull. When they disagree is with regard to the blood. One Sage holds that its blood is called a bull, and one Sage holds that blood alone is not called a bull.
When does the self leave? I have now seen many bodies after the soul has left them. But I’ll never forget the first.
A woman came over to me, “Are you Rachel?” It was Bob’s wife. She told me that Bob had told her how he was training me for the Olympics, how it meant a lot to her that I had come, how the cancer had ate away at him, how that was really him in the casket.
After seeing so many soulless bodies, I can tell you, that yes – the body still needs to be looked after and taken care of as it was and is a holy vessel – but after the soul has left, it’s not that person anymore. We still may call the body by the name of the person, but it’s not them. The soul has left its shell and what’s left in the shell is just the memory of what it once contained.